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Brigit Binns's avatar

Yes, tears making it hard to see right now. There are many wonderful writers to follow on this new thingy, Substack, and I can't follow nor support every one, but this is one of the most perfect essays I've ever read, and I want to be sure I never, ever miss another one. Upgrading, my beautiful, complicated, and wise young man.

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Michael Procopio's avatar

I can't begin to tell you what reading your comment meant to me. Thank you!

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Jolene Handy's avatar

This is gorgeous in every way, Michael 🥲

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Michael Procopio's avatar

thank you, Jolene.

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Jan.Morrison's avatar

Ah you! I've never been to Paris. I wanted to go when I was seventeen but instead I had a baby and then another and some husbands, jobs, chickens, but the closest I got to living my dream as a starving gamin in a smoky garret was when I camped on the French protectorate of St. Pierre and Miquelon. Off Newfoundland. Cheap wine but no pain purdue. Someday. I wonder if it is inevitable that Audrey Hepburn's ghost accompany one? I don't mind, I'd just like to prepare.

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Michael Procopio's avatar

You have lived so many lives, Jan! And the bit about Hepburn's ghost hits closer to home than you might think, but that is a story for another time...

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John D. Hackensacker III's avatar

Mercouri's Oscar belongs on your mantle, Michael! Beautifully written and voiced! The audio version slays me.

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Michael Procopio's avatar

Thank you, my favorite pince-nez-wearing fellow. Mercouri has an Oscar? I thought she was robbed by a breathy, tracheotomized Elizabeth Taylor!

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Elaine's avatar

Love this. Hate that you suffered.

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Michael Procopio's avatar

Thank you, my dear. In the end, I think the pain was worth a week in Paris with Thrasso, who is/was far superior to the other fellow in nearly every respect.

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Deborah Kwan's avatar

You're fishing! "Wow, just wow." as in the only response I could type out as I was so overcome by your vivid writing and the emotions it evoked of Paris, friendships, and love and life pains lost.

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Michael Procopio's avatar

I was ABSOLUTELY fishing. I appreciate this comment, my friend.

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Elise Bauer's avatar

This is a beautiful story, Michael

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Michael Procopio's avatar

Thanks, my friend.

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Dawn's avatar

This is beautiful. What a gift to be loved so well. 💖

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Michael Procopio's avatar

And it only took about a dozen people and traveling to another continent to make me realize it. (And thank you.)

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Betsy's avatar

This is the most beautiful essay ever. And the pain baby - oh, dear, Michael - that's exactly what it's like.

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Michael Procopio's avatar

You just made my morning. Thank you.

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Betsy's avatar

And you mine.

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Johnny Rochat - NorCal's avatar

I had to wait for my work shift to end to read this carefully, and what a great finish to this work day/week! Really, so beautiful Michael - for the duration of your story I was enjoying my virtual stay in Paris, and in love - did it have to be over so soon? You must know I’m crushin right now. And whoever that guy was who dumped you, I hope he eventually figured out he was a fool, but then Shaun I always had the curse of looking at a boy’s eyes instead of his other “attributes.” IMO the sexiest guys are intelligent/smart/clever!

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Michael Procopio's avatar

The eyes definitely have it for me, too. As for the other fellow, I hope he is on a better path and have my suspicions that I am correct in this. I think once I let go of all my sadness and anger and a few of those other unpleasant emotions, I was able to step back and get a clearer picture and understand him (and myself) a little better. Also, my Paris companion was a hell of a lot more fun.

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Erika's avatar

Wow. Perfect.

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Michael Procopio's avatar

If it was so perfect, then why did I not catch that I misspelled "perdu" in the title until just now? But I truly appreciate the sentiment.

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Erika's avatar

Maybe it's like the Shakers. Didn't they intentionally put one error in their crafts to stay humble?

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Michael Procopio's avatar

I like that. Or like Charles Babbage and his Difference Engine!

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Domenica Marchetti's avatar

Love the way this beautiful and poignant story unfolds.

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Michael Procopio's avatar

Life has a funny way of doing that sometimes. And thank you.

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Evelyn Skye's avatar

You are such a beautiful writer, Michael! I smiled and teared up multiple times. Brilliantly done.

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Michael Procopio's avatar

I will just sit here a moment and bask in your compliments. Thank you!

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N. Duffey's avatar

How wonderful! Yes!

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Michael Procopio's avatar

Thanks, Duffey!

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Deborah Kwan's avatar

Wow, just wow.

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Michael Procopio's avatar

Is it THAT BAD? We are several years overdue for one of our lunch dates, you know.

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Jennifer Balink's avatar

That was just lovely. And “some food blogger named David Lebovitz” was a cherry on top.

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Michael Procopio's avatar

Thank you, Jennifer. And David is very used to me not kissing his ass (although I actually like him a lot).

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